Red Lips, Cell Phones.

I love talking to old friends from home. (california)
I love that I have my own slackline now, and that it's sexy.
I hate that my toe is ripped. It hurts like crazy.
I love old loves still have a place there. It makes me feel connected.
I love that Here Comes The Sun by The Beatles just came on.
I love white noise.
I hate that I need white noise to sleep.
I love my old roomies and miss them lots.
I love random adventures.
I love my family.
I hate poop diapers.

Everyone should listen to Kate Nash.

I find myself reminiscing about old friends. So, here is this dedication to Elder MJKAwesome Dude. haha. See you next December, my friend.

How Far do I Have to Go to Get to You?

1.
I've come to realize that my job...
Is rather stressful but it brings a lot of fun into my life.

2. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
I listen to my music a little too loud. I don't mind, but I'm sure other people do when I notice them staring at me while I sing at the top of my lungs.

3. I've come to realize that I need...
to make new friends, and make sure the old friends become lasting friends.


4. I've come to realize that I have lost...
a lot of relationships in my life, but building new and better ones makes it okay.

5. I've come to realize that I hate it when...
People aren't loyal. It drives me totally and completely insane.

6. I've come to realize that what's most important...
is that I come first.

7. I've come to realize that money...
unfortunately is needed to survive in this lame economy.

8. I've come to realize that certain people...
not certain. All people can bring in something interesting and new into your life it you don't judge based upon silly pretenses.

9. I've come to realize that I'll always be....
wanting more from myself. Stressing myself out to make myself better as fast as I can, when it's not fully possible to happen the next day.

10. I've come to realize that I'm in love with....
myself. Only when you can love yourself you can love someone else. It's sad that people don't realize that.

11. I've come to realize that my mom..
is awesome. So what if she's dead?

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone...
can become a nuisance. I have the will power to turn it off.. do you?

13. I've come to realize, when I woke up this morning....
I was waking up at a decent time on my day off. Whoah.

14. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...
I really wanted to be where I could thrive. Intellectually, emotionally, physically. I need my actual best friend to help me realize things.

15. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about....
how nervous I am to take Heather's pictures today.

16. I've come to realize that my dad....
is human. He's not the super hero I thought he was when I was young, because humans make mistakes. But it's okay. I love him more than anyone in this whole world.

17. I've come to realize that today ...
Is just starting.. and it's a beautiful day to take pictures.

18. I've come to realize that tonight....
hasn't happened, and it will most likely be spent with a new friend and family.

19. I've come to realize that tomorrow...

will be a good day.

20. I've come to realize I don't like..
people who are flaky. People who are self absorbed. People who don't love. People that judge.

missing friends

i would just like to say that i really miss having friends. meaning here is a list of people that i sincerely miss.

michael kinghorn.
marisa johnson. [soon to be fixed this weekend]
michael ann. [hopefully soon to be fixed this weekend]
jessie stinks.
crust butt.

dreams

Dreams are very interesting things. I looked up dreams on Wiki, and this is what it told me:

There is no universally agreed biological definition of dreaming. General observation shows that dreams are strongly associated with raid eye movement (REM) during which an electroencephalogram shows brain activity to be most like wakefulness. Participant-non remembered dreams during non-REM sleep are normally more mundane in comparison. During a typical lifespan, a human spends a total of about six years dreaming (which is about 2 hours each night). It is unknown where in the brain dreams originate, if there is a single origin for dreams or if multiple portions of the brain are involved, or what the purpose of dreaming is for the body or mind.

During REM sleep, the release of certain neurotransmitters is completely suppressed. As a result, motor neurons are not stimulated, a condition known as REM atonia. This prevents dreams from resulting in dangerous movements of the body.

So, what that tells me is that a dream is maybe originating from certain parts of your brain when neurons fire, which results in dreaming. I don't know how to explain it to you, but I understand what I said. :]] But either way, dreams are interesting. Like my dream last night.

Before I fell asleep, I wrote in my journal--which hasn't happened in ages--about how much I miss my friends that are on missions. I fell asleep, and I dreamed about two out of the three of them. (no, not daniel... as that is to be expected.) But one was very hectic, and unruly, the other, more of a sweet gentle dream... just.. comfortable.

I don't know. I find it interesting.

Black Wave, Bad Vibrations.

Just pictures. I have millions. Have fun.

Fresh Baked Muffins

So, I find it interesting how dedicated people are to their friends. It makes sense, doesn't it? Good friends, together until the end. haha. But when I think about myself, I don't really dedicate my whole self to friends. I'm always guarded, and I feel like I read people really well. This one friend for example, she always tells the same story everyday for like a week depending on who she sees. It shouldn't bother me, right? But what if the story gets ever most imaginative and full of junk each time? Should I step in, make her look like a fool, or should I stay quiet and don't worry about it? It's hard for me to take sometimes, because that is how she gets her sympathy votes and her friends wrapped around her finger. But of course, she claims she doesn't do it on purpose, but for the sake of me, having to hear that story so often. Cha. Yeah, right. I don't think I can be her friend while she dates people, either. I can't stand the fact that they fall over her every exaggerated story and her neediness. Ugh. Disgusting.

Also, she's explained to me how she hates that I call her out on different things. Tough luck, girly. I do that to everyone. Okay. I'm finished.