not to toot my own horn, but i've gotten myself through a lot of shiz. a lot of it has been self-inflicted, some of it not, but srsly. if no one else was here for me, i was here for me.
happy wednesday.
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Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
SyFy.
Yes, I stole this from my sister. Why you ask? Mostly because i don't think I can name 40 things at this time of the morning. But hey. We'll see.
2. I truly enjoy hearing other's problem. ...to a point. If you complain about the same shiz, then I will get annoyed.
3. I like walking around outside without shoes. I really do.
4. I want to be the coolest history teacher in the world. I think it's because I had some amazing history teachers in my time. MAN. I truly adore them, still to this day.
5. I love driving my dad's car.
6. I hate it when my dad's car smells funny. (IE smoke, weird food, nasty nasty dog)
7. Don't tell, but I like it when my friends drive my car. I feel oddly safe when they drive my car.
8. I don't like being alone. Like right now, my dad is over at *ahem* her house. I hate it. I hate being alone, and I hate that he's there.
9. I'm a pretty big hippie. A hippie who likes to shower and have a job. But still. Animal activist, non-red meat eating, walk-around-without-shoes hippie.
10. I have become very much into Taoism. It's so, peaceful. I feel like my life isn't as complicated.
11. I dislike manipulative people.
12. I miss camping, bonfires, and sleeping under the stars.
13. I have this bracelet that I made a couple years ago that I still wear. IDK why, but I feel very lost without it.
14. I love my family. A lot.
15. I miss being a kid... like when nothing really mattered besides who is "it" in hide-and-seek.
16. I don't like that my dad is still in love with his ex-wife.
17. I'm not much for spectator sports, but I do love me some high school sports and some college sports. Mostly volleyball and basketball. I'm not much for football though.
18. I was afraid of everything when I was younger. ...and I mean EVERYTHING.
19. I find the supernatural intriguing. I can't decide if it's real or not.
20. I don't have just one favorite color. I truly do love them all.
21. I don't know where I would be without my friends. We just all fit together perfectly.
22. I am not a very girly person, but I love having my nails done. love love love love.
23. I don't know how I am going to handle dealing with baby poop. I get sick so easy... I just hope that the "when it's your baby" theory works, or I have a fabulous husband who will change diapers all the time.
24. My family is definitely cooler than your family.
25. I miss California, but I don't think I would move back.
26. I don't drink soda anymore. It's kind of crazy, because I use to drink soda everyday, at least 2 cans.
27. I miss school. I need school. I want homework. (I must be crazy)
28. I would love to stay in Idaho if the winters were not as long.
29. I get easily annoyed with whiny people. It's sort of sad, because I like to help/listen to people.
30. I hate hospitals.
31. Sometimes, I question my religion.
32. Then I realize I am being silly.
33. My favorite outfit for men is dark wash slightly jeans, a nice light colored collared shirt and nice shoes... Or even skate shoes. Fitted jeans... mmmhmmm.
34. There are things you just can't share with your family. Or at least you should wait a while until you tell them.
35. I believe in ghosts.
36. I am a firm believer in hotel camping.
37. I love tea!!
38. Swinging on swings is ridiculously therapeutic.
39. I love being scared.
40. I am not sure if I have repeated myself on this list of 40, but I hope you enjoyed it anyway.
Happy Wednesday!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
Baby craze!
Uhm, I think I have too many friends who are married/pregnant.
I don't really understand.
I don't want to get married - soon -
OR
have babies anytime soon after that.
...that's all.
Monday, December 7, 2009
I found this
...on a past post. hooray.
What did you wear today?
Purple pants, christmas socks, black sweatshirt.
Where is the person you want to see the most?
He will be in Oahu in 3 days!
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
I believe it was a cat. Does he count as a person?
How many windows are open on your computer?
3
What cant you wait for?
Christmas.
Have you ever experienced a "crazy ex"?
haha yes.
What are you doing after this?
Going to write some more to my story.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Old Navy
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Yes. Very much so. I seriously miss my Michael.
Do you like to cuddle?
It's the best part of the physical side of a relationship.
How tall are you?
5'4".
Which one of your cousins is closest in age?
Alyssa, she lives in Madera, CA. she's 2 months and 2 weeks older than me.
If you like someone does his or her name start with a B, D, K, M, C, A or J?
I like a lot of people.
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Def not.
When is the last time you talked to your father?
This past Saturday.
When was the last time you were disappointed?
Sunday.
What is your favorite kind of weather?
Anything warm.
What is your favorite color shirt to wear?
Any, I like most.
Would you change yourself?
hmmm.
Do you like hugs?
Yes.
Are you a loud person?
I'm usually loud, unless put into an unfortunately uncomfortable situation.
Are you wearing any jewelry? If so, what and where from?
Ring.
What color is your toothbrush?
Yellow/blue and white/hot pink.
Look to your left, what do you see?
pillows, a train set, my phone. birds.
Would your parents be mad if you came home wasted?
Yes. But I don't live with my dad.
Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend?
No. Amber did though. Meaning my sibling's friend.
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I sure hope so.
What would you rather be doing?
working. Seriously, I need a job.
What are you listening to right now?
HelloGoodbye
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?
Noooo.
Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes.
Do you currently have a hickey?
Nope. Hickey-free since 2006.
When do you go back to school?
Someday.
Did your parents spoil you as a child?
No.
Three feelings at the moment?
Anxious, tired, cold.
Did you & your ex have an amazing relationship?
I wouldn't say amazing. It was, nice.
Do you know someone named David?
I know a few people named David.
What about Francis?
Nope. My body pillow is named Francis though.
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
That's not nice.
Do you know anyone with cancer?
Yes.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
Amanda.
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
both.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Somewhere warm.
Where are your siblings?
In their homes.
When's the last time you cried?
a week or so ago.
Last person you sent a text to, what did it say?
shanda - sure thing.
What's on your mind right now?
FINDING A JOB.
Do you have a best friend?
yes
How many pillows do you sleep with?
3
Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yes sir.
What are you drinking right now?
Nothing.
Missing someone?
Yes, but not for long!
What did you wear today?
Purple pants, christmas socks, black sweatshirt.
Where is the person you want to see the most?
He will be in Oahu in 3 days!
Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
I believe it was a cat. Does he count as a person?
How many windows are open on your computer?
3
What cant you wait for?
Christmas.
Have you ever experienced a "crazy ex"?
haha yes.
What are you doing after this?
Going to write some more to my story.
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
Old Navy
Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Yes. Very much so. I seriously miss my Michael.
Do you like to cuddle?
It's the best part of the physical side of a relationship.
How tall are you?
5'4".
Which one of your cousins is closest in age?
Alyssa, she lives in Madera, CA. she's 2 months and 2 weeks older than me.
If you like someone does his or her name start with a B, D, K, M, C, A or J?
I like a lot of people.
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Def not.
When is the last time you talked to your father?
This past Saturday.
When was the last time you were disappointed?
Sunday.
What is your favorite kind of weather?
Anything warm.
What is your favorite color shirt to wear?
Any, I like most.
Would you change yourself?
hmmm.
Do you like hugs?
Yes.
Are you a loud person?
I'm usually loud, unless put into an unfortunately uncomfortable situation.
Are you wearing any jewelry? If so, what and where from?
Ring.
What color is your toothbrush?
Yellow/blue and white/hot pink.
Look to your left, what do you see?
pillows, a train set, my phone. birds.
Would your parents be mad if you came home wasted?
Yes. But I don't live with my dad.
Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend?
No. Amber did though. Meaning my sibling's friend.
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I sure hope so.
What would you rather be doing?
working. Seriously, I need a job.
What are you listening to right now?
HelloGoodbye
Is it possible that you could be pregnant right now?
Noooo.
Is there a guy that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
Yes.
Do you currently have a hickey?
Nope. Hickey-free since 2006.
When do you go back to school?
Someday.
Did your parents spoil you as a child?
No.
Three feelings at the moment?
Anxious, tired, cold.
Did you & your ex have an amazing relationship?
I wouldn't say amazing. It was, nice.
Do you know someone named David?
I know a few people named David.
What about Francis?
Nope. My body pillow is named Francis though.
Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
That's not nice.
Do you know anyone with cancer?
Yes.
Who was the last person you talked to in person?
Amanda.
In winter, would you rather wear jackets or hoodies?
both.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
Somewhere warm.
Where are your siblings?
In their homes.
When's the last time you cried?
a week or so ago.
Last person you sent a text to, what did it say?
shanda - sure thing.
What's on your mind right now?
FINDING A JOB.
Do you have a best friend?
yes
How many pillows do you sleep with?
3
Has anyone ever sang to you?
Yes sir.
What are you drinking right now?
Nothing.
Missing someone?
Yes, but not for long!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Nickel Creek - The Lighthouse's Tale
I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
I keep my lamp lit, to warn the sailors on their way.
I'll tell a story, paint you a picture from my past.
I was so happy, but joy in this life seldom lasts.
I had a keeper, he helped me warn the ships at sea.
We had grown closer, 'till his joy meant everything to me.
And he was to marry, a girl who shone with beauty and light.
And they loved each other, and with me watched the sunsets into night.
And the waves crashing around me, the sand slips out to sea.
And the winds that blow remind me, of what has been, and what can never be.
She'd had to leave us, my keeper he prayed for a safe return.
But when the night came, the weather to a raging storm had turned.
He watched her ship fight, but in vain against the wild and terrible wave.
In me so helpless, as dashed against the rock she met her end.
Then on the next day, my keeper found her washed up on the shore.
He kissed her cold face, that they'd be together soon he'd swore.
I saw him crying, watched as he buried her in the sand.
And then he climbed my tower, and off of the edge of me he ran.
I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
I keep my lamp lit, to warn the sailors on their way.
I'll tell a story, paint you a picture from my past.
I was so happy, but joy in this life seldom lasts.
I had a keeper, he helped me warn the ships at sea.
We had grown closer, 'till his joy meant everything to me.
And he was to marry, a girl who shone with beauty and light.
And they loved each other, and with me watched the sunsets into night.
And the waves crashing around me, the sand slips out to sea.
And the winds that blow remind me, of what has been, and what can never be.
She'd had to leave us, my keeper he prayed for a safe return.
But when the night came, the weather to a raging storm had turned.
He watched her ship fight, but in vain against the wild and terrible wave.
In me so helpless, as dashed against the rock she met her end.
Then on the next day, my keeper found her washed up on the shore.
He kissed her cold face, that they'd be together soon he'd swore.
I saw him crying, watched as he buried her in the sand.
And then he climbed my tower, and off of the edge of me he ran.
I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
And though I am empty, I still warn the sailors on their way.
Monday, November 17, 2008
a little sussy.
I found this while lurking--I am SO good at lurking--Zach's blog. I found it rather enjoyable, as well as other little sussies along the way. Sometimes, lurking makes life enjoyable. :]]]
8 Favorite TV Shows:
1. Heroes
2. Ugly Betty
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. Desperate Housewives
5. Pushing Daisies
6. CSI: Miami
7. House
8. Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Sushi Ya
2. Chili's
3. Fazoli's
4. Mongolian Grill
5. Ramires!
6. Frano's
7. The Oxygen Bar
8. Asuka
8 Things I Did Today: (or will do)
1. Laundry
2. Put my room back together
3. Loved me some Heroes
4. Texted.
5. Loved me some Reesey.
6. Loved me some LBP
7. Ate foods
8. pondered.
8 Things I Love About Fall:
1. Crisp mornings
2. Changing leaves
3. Longer nights - I am a night person all the way.
4. Scarves
5. Becoming an old maid. (as in staying inside crocheting and watching TV all day.)
6. Halloween
7. Friends
8. Hot Cocoa
8 Things I Wish For:
1. December 2009
2. That everyone will stop with the "2nd Coming" crap because Obama is our new President.
3. Smiles
4. Okay, this isn't a wish. But my niece Sierra just got up and said her bedtime prayers by herself. Way too cute.
5. Love
6. A career that I love
7. A man that I love
8. Forever friends.
8 Things I Look Forward To:
1. The future of the country
2. Graduation
3. My career
4. My future family
5. My love-y coming home
6. Sleep
7. Love
8. all that good stuff.
8 Favorite TV Shows:
1. Heroes
2. Ugly Betty
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. Desperate Housewives
5. Pushing Daisies
6. CSI: Miami
7. House
8. Extreme Makeover: Home Edition
8 Favorite Restaurants:
1. Sushi Ya
2. Chili's
3. Fazoli's
4. Mongolian Grill
5. Ramires!
6. Frano's
7. The Oxygen Bar
8. Asuka
8 Things I Did Today: (or will do)
1. Laundry
2. Put my room back together
3. Loved me some Heroes
4. Texted.
5. Loved me some Reesey.
6. Loved me some LBP
7. Ate foods
8. pondered.
8 Things I Love About Fall:
1. Crisp mornings
2. Changing leaves
3. Longer nights - I am a night person all the way.
4. Scarves
5. Becoming an old maid. (as in staying inside crocheting and watching TV all day.)
6. Halloween
7. Friends
8. Hot Cocoa
8 Things I Wish For:
1. December 2009
2. That everyone will stop with the "2nd Coming" crap because Obama is our new President.
3. Smiles
4. Okay, this isn't a wish. But my niece Sierra just got up and said her bedtime prayers by herself. Way too cute.
5. Love
6. A career that I love
7. A man that I love
8. Forever friends.
8 Things I Look Forward To:
1. The future of the country
2. Graduation
3. My career
4. My future family
5. My love-y coming home
6. Sleep
7. Love
8. all that good stuff.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Zen Gardens
I don't know what it is about them.. they just make me content. I hope my home has a zen garden, just for me.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Wandering thoughts
First Subject
So I've been trying to catch up on my online World Civilizations class. I'm a unit behind, and four sub-units behind. Although I am behind the rest of the class, I do love "being in school" again. I love learning.
Different Subject
I check the mail every day. I love getting mail. Especially from my dear friends who are serving missions. I've recently notice that I write letters a lot, but never send them. Why, you ask? I couldn't really tell you, it's not like the letters are super juicy with sentimental phrases and expressions of love. Maybe it's therapeutic. I like writing because I can let my mind flow the way it usually does. [Random, jumping from thought to thought with obscure and unexplainable ties to the previous one.] I think that is why a common sentence in the letters I receive from my friends is "I love your letters. You make me laugh so hard!" or something like unto that. I'm glad I can be some sort of comic relief.
So, I lost Elder Watkins' mission address. Some would think that I'm close to the family so I would be okay with giving them a call [seeing as I still have their home phone number] and asking for his address. Sometimes I feel like they still don't like who I am and what I've brought to mind in Elder Watkins and Amy. In short, his father scares me, and I feel constantly judged by Dr. Watkins. His mother is quite nice, but she's a hard person to read. Maybe it's my paranoia getting to me. All I know is that I'm glad that I'm not set on marrying him anymore. I'm glad we stopped dating, although I didn't act like I was happy about it for a long, long time. I'm happy that we're still friends, even though I find it more casual then some people think.
I hung out with Valory, Ammon and Rees last night. I love being with them. I love making new friends! I didn't really know Valory until last night, and she's so fun. I am a little sad, though, that old friends are becoming past friends. it's not really something I can control. I don't mean to lose friends, they just find other things to occupy their time with. Boyfriends, girlfriends, more friends, alcohol. Sad.
I'm going to catch up on WorldCiv now.
So I've been trying to catch up on my online World Civilizations class. I'm a unit behind, and four sub-units behind. Although I am behind the rest of the class, I do love "being in school" again. I love learning.
Different Subject
I check the mail every day. I love getting mail. Especially from my dear friends who are serving missions. I've recently notice that I write letters a lot, but never send them. Why, you ask? I couldn't really tell you, it's not like the letters are super juicy with sentimental phrases and expressions of love. Maybe it's therapeutic. I like writing because I can let my mind flow the way it usually does. [Random, jumping from thought to thought with obscure and unexplainable ties to the previous one.] I think that is why a common sentence in the letters I receive from my friends is "I love your letters. You make me laugh so hard!" or something like unto that. I'm glad I can be some sort of comic relief.
So, I lost Elder Watkins' mission address. Some would think that I'm close to the family so I would be okay with giving them a call [seeing as I still have their home phone number] and asking for his address. Sometimes I feel like they still don't like who I am and what I've brought to mind in Elder Watkins and Amy. In short, his father scares me, and I feel constantly judged by Dr. Watkins. His mother is quite nice, but she's a hard person to read. Maybe it's my paranoia getting to me. All I know is that I'm glad that I'm not set on marrying him anymore. I'm glad we stopped dating, although I didn't act like I was happy about it for a long, long time. I'm happy that we're still friends, even though I find it more casual then some people think.
I hung out with Valory, Ammon and Rees last night. I love being with them. I love making new friends! I didn't really know Valory until last night, and she's so fun. I am a little sad, though, that old friends are becoming past friends. it's not really something I can control. I don't mean to lose friends, they just find other things to occupy their time with. Boyfriends, girlfriends, more friends, alcohol. Sad.
I'm going to catch up on WorldCiv now.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Simple Things
I love being with my friends.
I love medical tape. [for actual medical reasons.]
I love days when it's warm in the sun, but cold in the shade.
I love slacklining.
I love my nieces.
I love the fact that I'm blunt.
I love my job, even though it's a little frustrating at times.
I love that Maya says my name like "eesaaa"
I love letters.
I love life.
I love music.
I miss my family.
I miss my real friends, and am saddened that they aren't around more often to talk to/laugh with.
I miss my mom. I know I don't sound like it, with all the jokes and nonsense, I really do miss her.
I miss how my brothers used to be super protective of me while I dated boys. Especially Phil.
I miss California. I miss the Friday nights at the farmer's market, swimming, Half Dome, Shaver Lake, Millerton Lake, my family there, my friends... everything.
I miss small aspects of high school and the monotony of doing the same thing every day. I liked the order.
I miss liking someone more than a friend. I really don't have anyone that I "like" in that way.
I miss my "N" cover. Maybe I'll get it fixed someday.
I'm excited to go to Hawaii. It'll be amazing.
I'm excited to see Axel next year. It's weird to me that he'll be finished with his mission in ten months or so.
(In extension)I'm super excited to see Michael in December.
I'm excited to start school. It's a nice feeling to be able to move to the next step in my life, mostly because I'm ready for it.
I'm excited to be married in the temple to ___________. [haha i'm funny]
I'm excited for life.
I'm excited to start going to the gym. It'll be rad.
i love/miss/am excited for sleep.
night. :]]
I love medical tape. [for actual medical reasons.]
I love days when it's warm in the sun, but cold in the shade.
I love slacklining.
I love my nieces.
I love the fact that I'm blunt.
I love my job, even though it's a little frustrating at times.
I love that Maya says my name like "eesaaa"
I love letters.
I love life.
I love music.
I miss my family.
I miss my real friends, and am saddened that they aren't around more often to talk to/laugh with.
I miss my mom. I know I don't sound like it, with all the jokes and nonsense, I really do miss her.
I miss how my brothers used to be super protective of me while I dated boys. Especially Phil.
I miss California. I miss the Friday nights at the farmer's market, swimming, Half Dome, Shaver Lake, Millerton Lake, my family there, my friends... everything.
I miss small aspects of high school and the monotony of doing the same thing every day. I liked the order.
I miss liking someone more than a friend. I really don't have anyone that I "like" in that way.
I miss my "N" cover. Maybe I'll get it fixed someday.
I'm excited to go to Hawaii. It'll be amazing.
I'm excited to see Axel next year. It's weird to me that he'll be finished with his mission in ten months or so.
(In extension)I'm super excited to see Michael in December.
I'm excited to start school. It's a nice feeling to be able to move to the next step in my life, mostly because I'm ready for it.
I'm excited to be married in the temple to ___________. [haha i'm funny]
I'm excited for life.
I'm excited to start going to the gym. It'll be rad.
i love/miss/am excited for sleep.
night. :]]
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Red Lips, Cell Phones.
I love talking to old friends from home. (california)
I love that I have my own slackline now, and that it's sexy.
I hate that my toe is ripped. It hurts like crazy.
I love old loves still have a place there. It makes me feel connected.
I love that Here Comes The Sun by The Beatles just came on.
I love white noise.
I hate that I need white noise to sleep.
I love my old roomies and miss them lots.
I love random adventures.
I love my family.
I hate poop diapers.
I love that I have my own slackline now, and that it's sexy.
I hate that my toe is ripped. It hurts like crazy.
I love old loves still have a place there. It makes me feel connected.
I love that Here Comes The Sun by The Beatles just came on.
I love white noise.
I hate that I need white noise to sleep.
I love my old roomies and miss them lots.
I love random adventures.
I love my family.
I hate poop diapers.
Monday, August 4, 2008
Fresh Baked Muffins
So, I find it interesting how dedicated people are to their friends. It makes sense, doesn't it? Good friends, together until the end. haha. But when I think about myself, I don't really dedicate my whole self to friends. I'm always guarded, and I feel like I read people really well. This one friend for example, she always tells the same story everyday for like a week depending on who she sees. It shouldn't bother me, right? But what if the story gets ever most imaginative and full of junk each time? Should I step in, make her look like a fool, or should I stay quiet and don't worry about it? It's hard for me to take sometimes, because that is how she gets her sympathy votes and her friends wrapped around her finger. But of course, she claims she doesn't do it on purpose, but for the sake of me, having to hear that story so often. Cha. Yeah, right. I don't think I can be her friend while she dates people, either. I can't stand the fact that they fall over her every exaggerated story and her neediness. Ugh. Disgusting.
Also, she's explained to me how she hates that I call her out on different things. Tough luck, girly. I do that to everyone. Okay. I'm finished.
Also, she's explained to me how she hates that I call her out on different things. Tough luck, girly. I do that to everyone. Okay. I'm finished.
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